@#$%^&*^%#@!!!!!!!!

Seriously, sometimes i think that is what Taylor is trying to say.... @#$%^&*&^%$#!!!!!! Because right after 5pm she becomes Taylor the Terror!!! We have noticed that there are a lot of "T" words that can go with Taylor's name... but for today.... she was a Terror... Screaming like a mad women!!! I think it was the Strawberry yogurt i gave her this morning... maybe all the sugar got to her and she flipped out...hahaha no, really, she had like a 5 min nap and lets just say my day was busy trying to keep her entertained, while having a massive headache which it is finally going away.... i have NEVER had a headache last for 3 days... i don't know what was wrong with me!!! What sucks is, i can't be sick... or tired... or anything, because there is no one to fill in for me. Brandon is always busy with work (and i pray school...) so it's just me... so days like today and yesterday really made me miss home, not saying i would mooch off my parents and just drop Taylor off at there house like a daycare, but it would be nice to have one day to just be sick and lay in bed all to myself... just having the opportunity of friends and family. I know i have secluded myself from people in WI, but since i have been here it was work,then immediately if i wasn't at work... i had a baby, and Taylor is my life and i can't let random strangers watch her... Since i have been here the only people i have seen or heard are always about wanting to drink...party...i know its the surroundings... like brandon works for a restaurant, which have young college kids ... brandon is a college student but hes 28 and has a kid... i think the partying and getting drunk is out of the question! excuses, excuses i know... but really its tough, and i am super jealous of all the people who live in the same vicinity of their relatives. i suppose it would be different if i didn't have a child, it wouldn't be so bad.... but i do and i would never want to change that, because i love Taylor with all my heart!!!! I abouslutely hated it when my parents would tell me "ah when we were younger we didn't have family to turn to, it was just us.." AHHH drove me mad, until i had a 20 hour phone conversation with my dad about how he told me that "the thing is, you have family so our lives are totally different...i could always turn to them...because they are always going to be there." I am so grateful for an amazingly loving family... What sucks is i don't get to be around them... and they are missing out on my daughter growing up... i know it sounds selfish on my part to want to be so close to my family... because the thing is i never had family other then my parents and 2 brother for the most part.... i never knew what it was like to have grandparents because i was never around them... My mom and I are so much closer now, we talk on the phone like almost everyday... and somehow we always have something to say... i know staying up here will be better in the long run.. (i hope) but it just sucks feeling so alone. Okay so that was my depressing rant for the month... i started this blog because i wanted to vent about life... but then friends and family started to read it because all i really have to talk about it Taylor... so i really have nothing bad to say... well that is what everyone thinks ;) so i will try to not post anymore venting post but i just have so much on my mind that the story goes so much deeper that its not worth going into on a blog.......
Today taylor and I played dress up because there was nothing else to do... so this little outfit was a onesie i made for her....


I have so many shoes , clothing and accessories ideas... but they are all in my head, because i have no time to make them :)